Breathe

I thought today I would try to explain my feelings about the Victor Martinez trade. As I mentioned before I am mostly over the disappointment but it still makes me very sad sometimes. Victor really was the heart and soul of this team. He was the type of player who would have accepted a paycut to stay with the Indians forever. And his dedication showed in how he played. Earlier this season he did somethings that I did now agree with but I forgave him and by the time the Trade (as I call it) happened I had pretty much forgotten. The surprising about this trade for me was that Victor was not even one of my top three favorite players on the Indians but I was devastated when they traded him. I mean devastated. I cried as hard as I cry at the end of Finding Neverland. I made a Victor playlist on iTunes. I figured when I could get through the playlist without tearing up I would be mostly over it. That took until about the middle of August and I still can’t watch the interview Victor gave the day he left. And his son’s hopeful question the morning of the Trade still chokes me up: “Daddy are we still Indians?” One song on that playlist in particular describes my feelings pretty well.

Breathe- Taylor Swift (by the way, Kanye is a jerk, okay moving on)
I see your face in my mind as I drive away
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it’s killing me to see you go after all this time

I don’t think anyone could have told you that Victor would be traded this year when the year started. But as the season got worse and it became clearer and clearer that the Indians were not going to the playoffs this year the Front Office realized that this was probably the best time to trade their aging catcher and get something really good for him. Especially with Carlos Santana in the minors Victor did not really have a place with this team in the future for what he deserved to be paid.

Music starts playing lie the end of a sad movie
It’s the kind of ending you don’t really want to see
Cause it’s tragedy and it’ll only bring you down
Now I don’t what to be without you around.

At first it was very hard to imagine what the team would be without Victor. He embodied this team, it took a long time for me to accept that he was gone and not coming back.

And we know it’s never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand

I do not think the Front Office would tell you it was easy for them to make this trade and I do not think that would a PR lie either. Victor meant a lot to the organization as a whole and trading him was probably ne of the hardest moves Shapiro has had to make.

And I can’t breathe without you 
But I have to
Breathe without you but I have to
Never wanted this never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
But people are people and sometimes it doesn’t work out
Nothing we say is going to save us from the fallout

Victor’s interview upon leaving was very sad and emotional. I have not watched it but I know he was very upset about leaving, so upset he was fighting back tears. Unfortunately he could not stay in Cleveland.

And we know it’s never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand
It’s two AM feeling like I just lost a friend
I hope you know it’s not easy, easy for me.
It’s two AM feeling like I just lost a friend
I hope you know it’s not easy, easy for me.

7 Comments

I’m sorry. :-( If it helps at all – we Red Sox fans have embraced V-Mart and we all sincerely hope that he will be back with us next season.

Julia
http://werbiefitz.mlblogs.com/

I have to second the “Kanye is a jerk” motion. It’s nice that he was moved by Beyonce’s video, because I agree it was a good one, but there are better ways to announce that…grabbing the mic out of someone’s hand is not one of them. I’ll be hoping for better days for your Indians. Hopefully, the skies won’t be as gray for the Astros next year. ;)

http://stonebutch99.mlblogs.com/

Nice blog. Kanya is an Idiot. Great post about Victor, but unfortunately it had to be done due to the “X” amount of money they were going to lose. Plus we needed pitching as you know. We have depth at catcher with Lou, Wyatt and Carlos, heck, even Chris. Carlos is suppose to be a mirror image of Victor Offensively, Hopefully!
http://clevelandbaseball.mlblogs.com/

Aw Melissa, I’m really sorry about this. We’re taking good care of Vmart though, but I completely understand. I cried when Masterson left because he was my favorite pitcher.
Elizabeth
http://redsoxgirl46.mlblogs.com

Melissa- the latest Leader’s List is out – with a twist – it covers the whole regular season from 4/4 – 10/4 and congrats! You are #17!

Julia
http://werbiefitz.mlblogs.com/

http://www.letsgotribe.com/2009/9/23/1052052/fire-everyone-and-everything

You commented and said the girl looks familiar – it’s me! Haha I just saw this and was like “what the heck?!” I have no idea how they got that picture (off my blog I guess??) and was NOT aware it was being used. I guess the bright side is it’s actually a decent pic – could have been something really gross and terrible! Haha.

Hope you’re doing well and surviving the off-season… I’m blatantly avoiding all Yankee fans and anything to do with NY until at least January.

That is exactly who I thought it was! I’m good with faces.
Good plan about the NY fans, they can be a little nuts.

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